Friday, December 16, 2011

Clean-ER Eating, Weeks 2 and 3 - Um, Well....

I was rolling along pretty nicely with this new clean-er eating plan.  I even took a 3 day work trip and managed to avoid most pitfalls (I limited my alcohol consumption, I had only one dessert the entire time).  But then something happened.  Some trigger that sent me face planting into a box of frosted cherry pop tarts.  And a bag of Reese's Cups.  And a box of cookies.  I could go on.  Seriously, I could go on.

It dawned on me (yes, I have a college degree, two actually) that I am an emotional eater.  I always had this tidbit of information in the back of my mind, but it really came full circle this week.  I was mad, I wanted to eat.  I was happy, I wanted to eat.  I was tired, I wanted to eat.  And I did.  And unfortunately I did not reach for an apple or some greek yogurt (still hate it, by the way, no matter how much Splenda I add).  My mom was an emotional eater.  I remember finding her up at 3 a.m. during my parent's divorce knee deep in a carton of Breyer's ice cream.  Unfortunately, she has struggled with her weight ever since.  And I have watched that struggle with the fear that history will repeat itself.

The really interesting thing here is that I FEEL like shit when I eat like shit.  The good sugary chocolate stuff did not make me feel any better, physically or emotionally.  In fact, I have been a slug all week.  I have been struggling through my morning workouts.  And frankly, I have been a BITCH to live with b/c deep down, I know I need to do better.  For myself. 

Now I could (and have) blamed my husband for bringing home that box of Krispy Kremes or that bag of mint MnMs (my absolute fave at Christmas).  And in all honesty, I do think it's kind of a shithead thing to do to your wife who is trying to clean up her eating habits.  BUT - at the end of the day, I am responsible for my own actions.  While he may have put the goodies at eye level for me, he did not force them down my throat.  I did that to myself. 

So it is with renewed resolve that I vow to start my clean-er eating habits again.  I have a grocery list in hand and plan to head out to Whole Foods to stock my pantry anew.   Now I must confess that I am attending a party tonight with an "all things peppermint" theme (you're jealous, I can tell), so this new plan will start...well, tomorrow.    I mean really.  How can I NOT indulge in a chocolate peppermint martini?  'Tis the season.  Hell yeah it is.  So wish me luck. 


  1. YOU CAN DO IT! (CHOCOLATE cupcake with peppermint!)

  2. Not to get all 'trainer' on you - but the more you experiment with clean-er eating and find foods you enjoy (instead of tolerating ones that you think are less nasty), the easier this will be. Instead of 'face down' in pop-tarts, you might have one every month or two. Instead of handfuls of M&M's, you will be able to have a couple and stop. Feeling a sense of enjoyment from food, not just pride over conquering the physical act of eating more clean foods, is the key. Looks like you have got great motivation and a good support system - looking forward to reading on!